shoes and shoes.. my current addiction..
i bought 8 pairs of shoes for the last 3 months and i want to buy more.
i'll donate those i dont want to wear anymore just to make room for more!
HUAHAHAHAHA... *evil*

Life is short
Break the rules
forgive quickly
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

this night, i feel like crying. Inside me is glaring with anger, buried with sorrow, faking it with smiles and laughs. I really want to talk this out.. but i dont know how and who.. explaining it by thoughts seems to be meaningless.. saying it out loud feels like empty, expressing it by words seems a good way to clear it out of my head. the feeling keeps me occupied with series of thoughts. the point of my existence is likely to fade away with time, i feel like a floating clover but without a certain place to stop and stay. happiness seems to leave from deeper me. besides me, giving this much thoughts about life that i am currently living. death, seems a like a good way to stay in peace, but death is just a path that everyone has to take. whats the meaning of life and death? it is just the same endless circle of life. We live and die.. die and live.. theres no actual ending for it.
Heaven, if such thing exists, please give us faith, whomever who created heaven.. to believe in such thing, so that we can have faith in our belief. show some miracles, and therefore, this world will be a better place to live.
and for Hell, i have to thank you for your 'existence' because of you, people start to do good and believe,.
Expressing this much doesnt make me happier, or enlightened.
I thought i am happy, but im not. why fake it? because it is what people want.. people never be themselves.. not even 1 time.. and people never know who are they, and they never know who are the ppl they know.. FAKES.. and fakes fakes fakes..faking faking faking..
fck life! its unfair. and why do ppl desperately want to live? because we are all fools.. u, me

IM SO FED UP WITH LIFE..
social life and other stupid stuff.

to be continued soon.. when, i dont know.. just fml.. and yours for those who read this !